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AT was just so groundbreaking through and through
#and yes it wasn't perfect#nothing is perfect no one is perfect etc#but what it did is challenged itself and the audience#it never went the easy route#it didn't go for what aesthetically pleasing#for what's easily understandable#and this is exactly what art should be#txt#it wanted to be something unique and it set a precedent for any new animations since then#it didn't treat the audience like it was stupid#like many shows after 2020s do and what audience expect#we need another AT to set the record straight again#that's why i also like Rise#it tried something new#it tried to be unique#and heartfelt#and i wonder how many creators were inspired exactly by AT in that
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so this is why you dressed up nice today like fuck off
#this is one of the lines that pops into my head randomly throughout the day and does extreme psychic damage to me every time#if you know how i feel why would you say that etc etc#and every fucking line from the episode 7 hell scenes#like i’ll be going about my day and then BOOM orpheus and eurydice line slaps me in the face#the worst is when i get hit with sorry no version of this where i didn’t come get you is there#and we’ve got literally forever to figure out what the rest means like SHUT UPPPP#if you or a loved one have been personally victimised by charles rowland popping in your head and saying the most devastatingly romantic#shit you may be entitled to financial compensation#genuinely there’s NO REASON for him to be that romantic like WHO GAVE HIM THE RIGHT#girl who is NOT going to be okay#charles rowland#he is so perfect to me#i mean the only perfect did nothing wrong character is niko like genuinely she’s so perfect#charles didn’t believe women for like one episode like he atoned for it but it still happened#and then him detailing his hook up with crystal when he knew edwin was jealous wasn’t great#but other than that literally perfect did no wrong#yeet my deet#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives#dbdshow#yeet my deebd#dead boy detective agency#dbda#payneland#edwin payne#chedwin#charles x edwin
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sepang 2015 hall of fame vale characterisation moment and yet the entire weekend is also such a betrayal to himself on so many levels... and so few have ever gotten him to that low, low point. idk everything about him is fascinating just by virtue of who he is but sepang vale is a tier above. insane man 💘
hes dosto-ing absolute evsky
#truly marc the ex that burned his house down that he cant get over <3#motogp#callie speaks#asks#dostoevsky of 'you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing' quote btw in case no one gets it#like idk i think sepang is the perfect most emotionally exacerbated tragic version of why they could never work in many ways#but its sad bc they were GOOD... too much pride too much baggage too many years between them too oblivious too selfish#too unempathetic etc... but initially SO into each other like genuinely enamored... in love... laughing.... its so sexyyyyy
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I have a big google doc thing where I keep track of media and stuff (putting everything in loosely ranked categories), which is mostly just for my own reference so I know what tv shows I've already seen before, etc. and I never really look back through it, typically just a quick "okay, watched two movie in the past 8 months, need to quickly slap them somewhere in the lists. okay. done. save document. exit". But today I was actually reading through some of the old notes and there are like... MULTIPLE places where my comment is basically "It would have been good if it were about elves" or "I wish there was a fantasy show made in this same style" or "It's well made, but I just keep thinking about how I would like it more if everyone was an elf or was in old 1700s costumes" or etc like...... lol.... Most biased media ranking system on earth blatantly made by someone with an extremely hyperspecific range of narrow interests. It'd be like if a food reviewer only had 5 foods they actually liked, so they'd just go to a pizza place and be like "eh, the pizza was okay, but I just think it would be better if it was cereal instead. :/ ...2 out of 10"
#Which.. I mean... I am allowed to be biased because literally it's just for my own personal reference (or occasionall#y to send to friends or something if we're discussing the topic) so like.. nowhere am I saying 'I am the god of perfect taste and these#rankings are objectively the absolute truth and everyone should have my same opinion' or anything#BUT still.. it's funny to me sometimes#'Succession would be 100x better if it had the same cast/character quirks and shaky camera style and#acting choices/weird dialogue and general concept etc. EXCEPT it takes place within an elven noble family or something#managing the family business and everyone is in fantasy costumes now'' like.....okay...... but it's NOT that way..soo... thats not the show#''I like the acting style/general tone of Fleabag but i don't care for any of the characters or any of the subject matter and I wish it was#set in the 1800s and had vampires and was about magic instead'' okay..... again... you are making up an entirely new show in that case lol#OR my other beloved typical complaint ''The concept is good but theres too much plot and action and not enough people just sitting#around doing nothing and exposition dumping world and character lore'' ''this needs more goofy sideplots and filler episodes''#''this Drama was too dramatic I think it should be more lighthearted & people need to sit around doing nothing just being weird more often'#''the Action Movie was ok except for the action scenes - which I skipped through all of- but I liked the costumes and worldbuilding'' etc.#ERM sorry your plot has too much plot. also elves have to be included somehow. bye#BUT SERIOUSLY!!!!!! I literally genuinely believe that any show I like (or even dislike) could ALWAYS be improved greatly by#putting people in fantasy or historical costume/setting/etc... why the FUNK would I want to see bland jeans and cars and cell phones#when I could see elaborate velvet cloaks and fantastical landscapes and interior design and innovative takes on historical or#magical technology or etc. etc. etc. I LIVE in the modern day. I see it all the time!!! BORING! stinky!! boo!!!#ANYWAY... another social divide for me.. People love to bond by discussing media. which is hard when I'm like#'I literally will not watch something at all unless it fits into one of these 10 extremely specific categories which are all i care about i#the entire world''.. I say this and yet I still dislike most fantasy or historical things I've watched lol. ok TWO main criteria then!!#it must 1. be in a different world or time period. 2. be goofy silly. Nothing ever has BOTH. It's always overly serious boring drama action#fantasy/history stuff OR it's comedic lighthearted but with modern day characters... WHY.. anguish and woe and so on..#ANYWAY jhjnk... at least I can make that divide. Some people seem to project their own personal preferences and get really emotionally#defensive if you say you didn't like something - as if the fact that they DO like it is some Objective Truth or something rather than just#opinion/preference based. I can still easily say ''this is well made/well written/acted/good in a technical sense/has a lot of#points of appeal that most people would be drawn to/etc'' and admit that it's a GOOD show probably. I just PERSONALLY think its#bad because my tastes are very narrow. Some things ARE actually made badly but. things are not bad INHERENTLY just bc they dont suit ME lol#Better to recognize/accept whats odd about you and be peacefully aware of it than just being mad at everyone all the time for not fully#agreeing with you even when you're the one with the Weird opinion in that case lol.. I am right though :3 but.. lol... still. i get it
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genuinely the thing that is running me dry is paying for my sister nearly every time we go out. i hate that she doesn't have money genuinely and what's worse is that she has A JOB she just spends everything within the first 5 minutes of having it. i'm never paying for her again unless i'm certain i'm getting paid back.
#etc#i actually make less than you and i have to pay for parking each time i work and i dont want to rely on our parents for everything#but noooo everytime we go to a cafe i'm the one that pays and the bill runs up to like 50 dollars#astaghfirullah khalas we'll make the change#i work abt 20 hrs a week but i'm thinking of upping my hours once we get back from masr#really i have nothing to do other than classes and bridesmaid prep but i want to fit in some volunteering at the masjid inshallah#the problem is their kid's quran class isn't on the weekends like a sunday would be perfect 😭
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I'll be ignoring canon when it comes to the latest quest's info on Subject 2's fate so this is him To Me
#◜✧ . ❪ muse. subject two. ❫#◜✧ . ❪ subject two ; mirror. ❫#I shoulddd give him a modern verse bc On God his Gen.shin life is beyond atrocious (killed revived killed again revived Again killed again)#The tl;dr is that his 'mother' founded a homunculus project to try & create The Perfect Human & this guy was one of the homunculi#but he inherited shapeshifting traits so he was discarded bc he Wasn't Human Like She Wanted & her method of discarding him#was by feeding him alive to the dragon she created a while prior 😬 he survived in that thing's stomach for 500 years in comatose#& when he finally awoke and got out he saw his mother succeeded in the project and created A Perfect Human (his youngest brother)#so his reaction was to try and kill his youngest brother & shapeshift into him to take over his life bc he Knew Nothing Else#they ended up fighting & he died in that fight and from there it went downhill. if you can even imagine it being More Downhill Than That#I'm trying to figure out details for a modern verse bc this dude (/nb)'s a whole Mess but yk. when in doubt add him to Tobias' friends list#Tobias' acquaintances really are insane. Why does bro know vampires ghouls homunculi etc ON TOP OF the bajillion human weirdos 😭#Unfortunately Tobias would use the hell out of Subject 2 💔 he wouldn't trust him At All (bc of the shapeshifting) but he'd use him FOR it#Also while typing this out I realized Subject 2 is a blonde guy. TOBIAS CANNOTTTTTTTTTTTTT ESCAPE THESE ALLEGATIONS
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hm. genuinely didn't think i'd be watching the collapse of the United States of America in my lifetime, but hey.
#spark talks about nothing of relevance#*shrugs* i mean what is there even to say that hasn't been relayed and echo chambered and warned and etc#so anyways usa mutuals genuinely wishing you the best and stay safe. take care of you and your own 💙🫂#and hey we're SURE as hell not perfect but feel free to hop across the pond to the uk whenever#i mean where i live (crown dependency) is so so quiet. nothing to do but. we're not imploding? so???#not maintagging this one this is just a whisper to the wind
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i really do think they should commit to a cindy burman redemption arc btw
#eleanor.txt#cindy burman#stargirl#she’s perfect for it i’m sorry n i also think it makes so much sense for courtney too#this isn’t just the starshiv in me this is analytical it’s logical#courtney doesn’t really have any permanent friends continuity wise#they just kind of toss her at whichever young hero they want to write at the minute. which is fine too tbh#i do hold that she’s a social butterfly i think she’s very extroverted it makes sense she has a lot of connections n friendships#but one of the first things we learn about courtney in most (if not all) continuities is that she’s losing her best friend—#—bc of the move to blue valley#n i’m not saying she necessarily NEEDS a best friend. but they’ve tried it with so many different characters at this point#n it’s so clear none of them have stuck#bc whether she ‘needs’ one as character is subjective but that is a narrative hole they keep leaving and attempting to fill#sooooo. i’m just saying. there’s a character who has been there from day 1 of courtney’s genesis#n she’s SO perfect for redemption.. her whole family thing the experiments etc etc#like i think it’s a real missed opportunity to not redeem her ever or attempt to#obviously i would love it to be permanent n taken as canon for all comics forward but . nothing sticks ever around here
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being a queer with progressive ideas who rejects harmful traditional norms and having (lack of) daddy issues is like how to consolidate the fact that the 'perfect' familial environmental for a child is not forcement the nuclear family with a mother and a father. but also im fucked up bc i was raised without a dad and a child needs a dad ...
#cloud nonsense#like does tht make sense?#i mean lack of daddy issues as not having a father figure in ur life#esp at all not just oh he was there u knew him then he left. like nvr knew him he was nvr mentioned#it's like i dont think#n furthermore i know tht i mean as long as the ppl raising the kid has the kid's best interest at heart etc#then 'anyone' can be a parent n create a safe healthy environment for a child to grow up#but then on the other hand u feel robbed of having a perfect childhood#and by extension life bc of the absence of ur father#which also makes u think like hmmm#what exactly are daddy issues? like myb it's nothing to do with a dad being there or not#but many other factors#and it's easier to pin that difficult to parse empty space in ur development as the lack of the one very obvi thing u lacked#a dad?#hmmm much to consider
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ok sorry if this sounds fucking insane. i need to write something out.
#vent. sort of.#okay. why do i have absolutely no clue what i want or like. like in life. career/job/college/life etc wise. no interests beyond casual.#and amateur level interests. which is fine but i don’t think i want them to go higher and therefore aren’t careers you know. i like them#for fun. but like all my friends have interests and things they’re studying or doing that i hear it and i’m like oh my god yeah that’s them#that’s perfect. that’s so them. of course. makes perfect sense. and they have the history of hobbies and interest in the topic to back that#choice up. but me? man i have fucking nothing. i feel like i have been in survival mode forever and i literally have not had the opportunit#or ability to develop myself and my interests or even my fucking STYLE or ANYTHING!!! it seems worthless FOR ME. WHY????????#that’s the survival mode talking. but like what am i supposed to do now. i feel like a fucking shell of a person. like the only thing that#passes through this brain is whatever my current hyperfixation is and whatever new hell/trauma/issue i’m dealing with in my life. that’s it#man i remember being a kid and having vibrancy and passion and interests. and it just left. maybe it left when my brother was born when i#was 10. maybe it left during any one of the traumautic experiences or abuse during my teenage years.#but then i wonder what my friends see. like do i have interests and likes in their eyes? i mean space has been My Thing to my friends for#years now but even my interest and love for that was a coping mechanism (escapism) and i’m not interested in the science beyond what i can#use to cope and mentally escape or use in my head as hope for escape.#MAN i feel like i’m so fucked. like i don’t know what the fuck to do. i don’t want to do anything. maybe i’m depressed?#i mean i know i do and have dealt with depression but i mean maybe that’s what this is from.#maybe i’m autistic? maybe adhd and maybe that’s why i have whims and phases that never stick? i don’t know.#maybe it’s from the dysphoria? maybe it’s like bc i can’t picture a future for myself bc of that? probably not cuz i have trans friends who#do indeed have solid interests and senses of self.#so. i don’t fucking know.#i don’t fucking know. i don’t know what to do. i feel like i’m falling behind and like i’ll never get out and i’ll never get my head into#my own real life and the present in order to figure out who i am and what i like and want. i’ve got NOTHING. HEAD. EMPTY. WHAT THE FUCK.#what the fuck. what do people do when they run up against this problem. i don’t know.#maybe this rn is just because i’m on my period. i don’t know. fuck.#maybe it’s dissociation. or like FROM my lifelong dissociation issues. hmm.#okay but THEN i’m like okay this is a really privileged problem to have like. i have a choice in what i want to do. which is nice. and i am#not even being rushed by my family. so like. then i feel even worse for feeling this way. fuck. maybe it’s fine maybe it’s all fine.#maybe this just happens sometimes and a person has no interests and it’s fine. i don’t fucking know. doesn’t seem to be that way for most#people but maybe. who knows#vent
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We got another one, lads!
Also I have both the PDF and the audiobook on my Google Drive and I'm more than willing to send you the link.
P.S. if you DO end up reading it, I gotta warn you that the ending sucks. It's no good at all. Imho it renders a whole character completely pointless and massacres like 2 separate themes of the book at once. Literally just because of 5 or so sentences. Personally I like to just ignore those specific sentences and pretend that that particular plot twist did not happen. Because here's the fun part: in the terms of the literal plot, the plot twist is totally pointless. It works perfectly fine without it. If you erase those 5 sentences literally nothing changes. The only thing that changes is the thematic level of the work and it changes for the worse. A parallel just fucking gone. A character is there for no fucking reason now. A whole character arc might as well have not happened. Like two whole themes go up in flames. Several scenes begin to make no sense at all.
Oh also every time someone I know reads it, they make me aware that I forgot to warn them about a fatphobic scene at the start of the book. I keep erasing it from my memory and that's why I keep forgetting to warn people. But I'm warning you about it now. It's there and it sucks.
Other than that I really recommend the book. King wrote it in two or so weeks while having stomach flu and it shows (positive).
enough about the eroticism of cannibalism what about the eroticism of parasitism. this is our body because i live in you.
#like seriously it's worth it you gotta reading it it fucks#i find it to be a very atypical book for King. granted i mostly read his short stories but still.#what i mean is that most of King's work is very much about what is really happening. Even Carrie; my favourite book of his;#which is largely psychological horror; ties the psychological horror with what's really happening.#whereas Dreamcatcher atypically seems to be two very different layers: what's happening (a war; i guess. an infection. body horror.)#and what's happening on a psychological thematic level (humanity/inhumanity. dreams/insanity. the duality of man(?). the question of#individual identity. who are you? what does it mean? what does it mean to be someone? do you have to be Someone or is it enough to be#someone? is the sunk cost a fallacy or a duty? if it's the latter to whom is this duty sworn? do you know? what kind of life#do you live? are you even living a life? do you want to be living a life? what does it feel like to die? what does it feel like not to? etc)#the layer happening solely in the characters' heads is so prominent that the movie adaptation; which lacks it; is pretty much#a whole different story. and for the record aside from their (even worse)* attempt to retcon the ending; it is a GREAT adaptation#with some very well known actors. it actually got me to read the book lmao. the problem is that since it fails to adapt#the inner monologues and dialogues (understandably) it fails to convey literally any of the themes.#plus it makes the stars of the show (Jonesy + Gray) into pretty minor characters as a sideffect.#but i DO recommend watching it later for the stellar performance of the guy who plays Jonesy + Gray. he genuinely plays Gray#in a very unsettling manner and it's perfect. no idea about the voice because I've only ever seen it in Czech and our VA does a great job#*yeah ok um. so the adaptation chooses to be insane and makes the character with implied Down's syndrome into an alien from#a race that's at war with Gray's race. like. ok. that's literally the indigo children rhetoric. the famously ableist cult rhetoric.#like that's a very real very much still practiced belief in some cults. the belief that neurodivergent children aren't human beings#but are instead alien souls reincarnated into human bodies.#anyway yeah read Dreamcatcher. surreal experience. Gray peak character. never has there been a bigger loser. hivemind's weakest soldier fr.#obviously Jonesy is also peak character because the themes couldn't work without him and also just because he has some kind#of problem and also he's a horror fan and that's a bonus. funniest fact is that he has a wife but mentions her like twice. he has#something much more intimate going on with his friend Beaver. who's actually also my favourite character.#but Jonesy definitely deserves the 2nd spot if for nothing else but having much stronger chemistry with one of his friends AND#with the alien fungus in his head than he has with his own wife. like ok Jonesy I think you might want to re-evaluate your marriage.#oh also he's disabled and i just think it's neat. chronic pain gang feat Jonesy and his busted hip.
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10 Non-Lethal Injuries to Add Pain to Your Writing
New Part: 10 Lethal Injury Ideas
If you need a simple way to make your characters feel pain, here are some ideas:
1. Sprained Ankle
A common injury that can severely limit mobility. This is useful because your characters will have to experience a mild struggle and adapt their plans to their new lack of mobiliy. Perfect to add tension to a chase scene.
2. Rib Contusion
A painful bruise on the ribs can make breathing difficult, helping you sneak in those ragged wheezes during a fight scene. Could also be used for something sport-related! It's impactful enough to leave a lingering pain but not enough to hinder their overall movement.
3. Concussions
This common brain injury can lead to confusion, dizziness, and mood swings, affecting a character’s judgment heavily. It can also cause mild amnesia.
I enjoy using concussions when you need another character to subtly take over the fight/scene, it's an easy way to switch POVs. You could also use it if you need a 'cute' recovery moment with A and B.
4. Fractured Finger
A broken finger can complicate tasks that require fine motor skills. This would be perfect for characters like artists, writers, etc. Or, a fighter who brushes it off as nothing till they try to throw a punch and are hit with pain.
5. Road Rash
Road rash is an abrasion caused by friction. Aka scraping skin. The raw, painful sting resulting from a fall can be a quick but effective way to add pain to your writing. Tip: it's great if you need a mild injury for a child.
6. Shoulder Dislocation
This injury can be excruciating and often leads to an inability to use one arm, forcing characters to confront their limitations while adding urgency to their situation. Good for torture scenes.
7. Deep Laceration
A deep laceration is a cut that requires stitches. As someone who got stitches as a kid, they really aren't that bad! A 2-3 inch wound (in length) provides just enough pain and blood to add that dramatic flair to your writing while not severely deterring your character.
This is also a great wound to look back on since it often scars. Note: the deeper and wider the cut the worse your character's condition. Don't give them a 5 inch deep gash and call that mild.
8. Burns
Whether from fire, chemicals, or hot surfaces, burns can cause intense suffering and lingering trauma. Like the previous injury, the lasting physical and emotional trauma of a burn is a great wound for characters to look back on.
If you want to explore writing burns, read here.
9. Pulled Muscle
This can create ongoing pain and restrict movement, offering a window to force your character to lean on another. Note: I personally use muscle related injuries when I want to focus more on the pain and sprains to focus on a lack of mobility.
10. Tendonitis
Inflammation of a tendon can cause chronic pain and limit a character's ability to perform tasks they usually take for granted. When exploring tendonitis make sure you research well as this can easily turn into a more severe injury.
This is a quick, brief list of ideas to provide writers inspiration. Since it is a shorter blog, I have not covered the injuries in detail. This is inspiration, not a thorough guide. Happy writing! :)
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Fuck I reached 30 tags I guess that got us rambling
For full context I guess read those first cuz I'm not putting all that here again
We got started on mythology and bitch were not close to being done
What I was about to put in another tag was:
I'm interested but I'm not gonna read scientific papers on mythology sorry Africa and Oceania...
European is just the easiest to come by and most relatable mythology. Being. A filthy European.
Although I'd love to hear more shit about mythologies that are more exotic to us
And no. I don't mean japanese. That's barely exotic at this point.
No I'm not reading journey to the west again either.
I could go on for so long honestly I fucking love mythology with a passion I wish I had more energy and patience to get deeper into it
But yeah no I'm not sitting down reading research papers or ancient texts that aged horribly for hundreds of hours
At least not with these mental illnesses I'm not
i made a character uquiz. i 100% promise you that you will get a character you know AND like
#THERES SO MANY COOL RESULTS AND YOU GIMME NICK CAGE#MOTHERFUCK-#i hate this#theres literally morgan le fay in there#AND MEDEA#listen who the fuck even knows who medea is#i do#thats the fuck who#and i did not get her#BUT NICOLAS CAGE#OKAY BITCH#I HAVE NEVER PLANNED A PERFECT MURDER BEFORE BUT OH IT IS ON NOW#PREPARE TO FACE THE WRATH OF A WOMAN THAT LOVES EVIL MYTHICAL (and historical) WOMEN#i will drain your blood into a tub and take a nice bath in it#i will string you up on the high gates of babylon#i will throw you into the depths of irkalla and judge you to eternal death#you will long for the pain of tartarus#nothing heracles has endured will hold a candle to your suffering#(ah shit referenced greek mythology twice already? fuck im getting out of practice...)#i will show you why we fancy the name of Nemesis#...okay listen greek and mesopotamian mythology are just the most interesting ones.#greek is the most popular so just easy to come by greek mythology content#and mesopotamian is just the oldest mythology that we have decemt records of as far as im aware#i like other stuff too but its harder to find stuff about it#and tbh chinese and japanese would be the next easiest but i just cant connect with them as well#(despite being a fucking weeb)#celtic is hard to get started on and so is nordic and slavic#then native american inca aztec etc are hard to relate for us again. somehow just doesnt click#indian is kinda neat. should get more into that#a lot of stuff from africa oceania etc is neat but near impossible to come by without actively looking
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yknow, i've long thought i hated handwashing dishes and avoided it whenever possible. but i've recently discovered i don't really mind it... when it's my own dishes im washing
what i actually hated was having to clean up after people who let messes get big. doubly so now when im like 'hey, i really don't wanna be designated dish clown, can you guys wash up after yourselves please?' and they're like 'yeah, sure' and then like. they don't. and the dishes pile up in the sink. and then they're like 'oh, we'll wash them this weekend' when i say something but then they don't and then i have to take an obnoxious amount of time on my days off cleaning up after them
#like. idk man#i dont think its an unreasonable expectation for people to wash up after themselves#yes. even after cooking. i do it. so it's not like a 'rules for thee not for me' sitch#i get that it's unpleasant. washing dishes can suck sometimes#but. like. it has to get done?#thats why i end up doing them anyway even after bitching at them. because we need clean dishes to use and access to the sink#i think biggest thing that pisses me off about it is that#i told them i dont want to be dish clown. and they acknowledged that#and then they let it pile up anyway#not to get asshole dad on main. but it genuinely feels disrespectful#or maybe thats not the right word#im not gonna say they dont care about me bc they dont wash their own dishes#but it feels shitty that they cant respect my boundary of 'i dont want to be the only one doing dishes. it's unfair'#like. how do you drill into someone's head that daily maintenance >>>> dealing with giant piles of mess when it gets too big to avoid?#it's something i still deal with ofc. im not perfect etc etc#and it's not like they do nothing. they even do dishes on occasion#every once in a while#it just. wouldnt be a big thing. if it never got to be big#to the void with love
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i always feel like such an impostor in church btw
#today was my grandfather's memorial mass#it's been a year since he died. it was a year on... wednesday#november 6th#i was extremely upset on that day but not just bc of grampy lol#tales from diana#man losing my grandfather last year was incredibly awful#like it was so much worse than i thought it was gonna be. to lose both of my dad's parents#they were really the best grandparents in the whole world. they were perfect and i admired them so much#they were just such excellent and well-put-together people#and so full of love and grace towards everyone in their lives#i really spiraled when grampy was gone. and it's like why? he was 95#both he and grammy essentially left at the 'right' time. they couldnt go on any longer theyd suffered enough etc#they were surrounded by loved ones in all of their final hours#and there was nothing particularly sudden about it in either case#i dont know. i guess losing grampy just reignited how hard it was to lose grammy#when grammy died that was mid-pandemic and i hardly processed it at all#it was just so strange. it never felt like she was gone but she obviously was#and i felt so bad he had to live wo his wife of 70 years but he kept trucking for another 2 and a half. almost 3#idk. idk. idk#i love them both so much
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I'm reading my old philosophy notes and this is making me remember very well how there actually are no right answers to philosphy, just an endless amount of different options on what to base your thinking on. All of them can be argued against, none of them are fool proof. You just have to pick one of the imperfect answers and live with the fact that it's imperfect and that there most likely will never be a perfect answer to any philosophical question.
#I do remember that realising this made me despair a bit in hs#not anymore#but it still does make me feel tired because having to pick a stance or a philosophy from only imperfect options is daunting#like it's pretty natural to want to pick the perfect and right answer but what are you supposed to do when there isn't one?#forces you to realise that you can't always be right and nothing can ever be perfect despite you trying as much as you want etc etc#what will you do when faced with that fact? it's a big question#anyways. maybe I should get back into philosophy. I did really like writing philosophical essays.
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